I had an awful day yesterday (the Father's Day part was great) going round and round with computer problems. I was not a good Christian or a good witness. If I had been a child I would have rolled around on the floor kicking and screaming. As it was, I'm an adult so after being rude and impatient, I merely flopped myself on the bed, had a good cry followed by a nap.
I can hear the accusation in my head, "You Christians are supposed to be really good people but you're all a bunch of hypocrites, telling us how we should be but not able to be that yourself."
So true. I came to Jesus needing forgiveness and I didn't stop needing him just cause I found him. I wish I was better because I hate to apologize. Humbling myself to say "I was wrong, please forgive me" is just no fun, though I must say, the resulting healing is incredible.
I'm still in need of a Saviour and still in need of divine power to be more than I'm capable of being. Doesn't mean I'm not responsible to try. Doesn't mean to stay like I am. Just means I need help!
The next time I hear that accusation "Why aren't you better?" I'm going to say, "Because I'm still in need of a saviour."